But it’s not. I have so many other strings keeping me together. But this string breaking fucking sucks.
I always feel like I have to have a job right now. I feel like I should be working my ass off for money right now. I get discouraged to reach my goals because I feel like I don’t have time or money to go through 8 years of school. I wish it wasn’t like this. I wish I had the money. I wish I had more reasonable and supportive parents. But all I can do now is deal with it. Once I reach my goals I will show you. It would have been worth it to invest your money on me.
I’m going to be in debt after college, not her. She might think that debt can make me miserable in the future but I’m miserable right now. There are people that are much more poor than me and can live on campus because they take out loans. But since I can’t take out loans, I have to commute to school. Why can’t I make my own decisions about what I want to have in my future?
I’ll be miserable now. I’ll suffer so much now, but I hope I still reach my goals. I’m still going to follow my dreams even though my mom and money are in the way. I’m still going to take all the classes I need, I’m still going to participate in all the extracurricular activities I need. Starting from the bottom, I will be at the top. The road to being successful will be hard, but I can do it.
Applying for jobs right now. Probably going to have a job this school year just in case I can’t do research. Going to be smart and apply for jobs around where I live this time instead of all the way on campus. Hopefully I can handle all of this. I can right?
Both times were because of my mom. I don’t mean to brag but I’m the person in my family that is most likely to succeed, yet I get no support from my family. I’m so ambitious to the point where I constantly think about my career and my future. My mom never cares about my future and thinks I’m spending so much of her money. But all of that money is spent on school. I care so much about school but all she doesn’t care one bit.
someone’s building an actual Krusty Krab less than 6 miles from where i live
no really, it’s in construction
it’s coming along nicely
they put up the flags